There’s so much space in my mind right now. I keep stopping myself and reminding myself to breathe and that it’s going to be alright. And then I think about that thought and wonder what exactly is going to be alright. Life is pretty good right now. New (to me) car, work is happening, school on the horizon, and endless possibilities. I know that I miss him. But the sadness isn’t world ending heart wrenching sadness. He’s still dear in my heart and I love more now than ever before. There’s a peace that goes along with it and I’m glad for it.
I think this year is going to be life changing for me. I can feel it. Standing on the precipice waiting to jump. I can feel the change looming and I think that it’s that feeling that brings on the anxiety. It’s not a negative anxiety either, more like a restlessness. “let’s get this over already” type thing. I’m ready to move forward, more so now than ever before. I can only imagine what it will be like, who I will be like.
thirdeyevenus on 2012